Have you noticed how the social media feeds of many folks in the DOC are starting to look a little rosy? It’s a veritable florist out there at the moment, with lots of people talking and sharing information about #SpareARose.

I’m resharing is a recycled vlog from last year where I suggested that we try to get #SpareARose outside of the DOC and into the conscience of a broader audience. Watch my over-caffeinated rantings…and then tell someone about #SpareARose and ask them to donate.

The address for donations is: www.LFACInternational.org/SpareARose

(If this is your first time here, you may be wondering what’s #SpareARose? It’s a campaign that was developed by some pretty amazing advocates from the diabetes online community back in 2013. The idea is simple: send eleven roses instead of twelve to you love this Valentine’s Day and donate the money you saved (about USD$5 / AUD$7) to #SpareARose. Your donation will go directly to Life for a Child and provide a month of life-saving insulin to a child with diabetes. Spare a rose, save a child. Sounds like a pretty special Valentine’s Day gift to me.)

I went to the endo the other day armed with questions and issues I wanted to discuss. I’d found all random notes I’d typed on my phone and sticky notes I’d stuck around my office and cobbled together a list of things to work through.

And at the end of the appointment, there was a tick against every single one of them. (Except for the one about a new travel letter. I haven’t bothered travelling with a letter for some time now because I never needed it, but the last couple of times I’ve gone through security in the international terminal in Melbourne, I’ve been given some grief about refusing to walk through the full body scanner.)

I asked about other drugs that I could take to augment my current diabetes treatment. I know that others with type 1 have added Metformin or SGLT2s to their drug cocktail and wondered if I should be considering something else.

I asked about new drugs coming, how I will use faster insulins once they finally bloody hit our PBS shores and talked about protective measures I could take to reduce the risks of every single thing that diabetes likes to throw in our direction.

I realised half way through the appointment what I was doing and it struck me all at once why I was doing it. It was about feeling in that diabetes rut – not in terms of general ‘over it burnout’, but a treatment rut. It was about me wanting more. What else can I do? What else can I take? What else should I think about? What else? What else? What else?

Loop is continuing to do doing its thing. It keeps me and my diabetes ticking along with minimal effort and generally decent lines on my CGM.

But because I am an idiot and obviously have D-FOMO, apparently, it’s not enough. I turn into Chester, that annoying little puppy in the Warner Bros ‘Chester and Spike’ cartoons, bouncing around ideas and thoughts and different drugs and treatments.

When you co-exist with diabetes, the very definition of ‘lather, rinse, repeat’, it’s easy to get complacent. And from there, it’s just a hop, skip and a jump to being in a rut. Is it any wonder that we get bored, disinterested and downright over the whole bloody thing? Or that to try to counter that boredom, we want to try anything and everything; whatever we can to keep a little bit of interest in what we are doing. We see things new and shiny and flashy and want it – not always because we feel we need it. But just because it’s something novel.

I walked out of my endo appointment without a prescription for any new drugs. We chatted about my options and when we weighed it all up, there didn’t seem to be any real benefit. But the door is open for further discussions when I see her next.

I don’t need anything new. There is nothing I can do really to be doing better. It’s just more of the same. Every day. Lather. Rinse. Repeat. (And repeat…repeat…repeat.)

I’ve been Looping for about 17 months now. I’m a fan (perhaps you may have picked that up).

The reason I am a fan has nothing to do with my A1c. In fact, right now, I couldn’t tell you what my A1c is (more about that later). I love Looping because it works for me. It takes away a shedload of my diabetes tasks. It helps me sleep better. It gives me more energy. It means I think about diabetes less. It significantly, significantly, significantly reduces the number of hypos I have, and the impact of the almost-hypos that have replaced the doozeys used to have. It means I get to wear cool t-shirts.

Badge of honour…

Because in exactly the same way as if I have tried a different eating plan it’s never been about numbers on the scale, Loop has never been about A1c.

It’s especially never about a measurement that is so flawed that it really is time to wonder why, for me and those of us who are able to access far more informative and useful data, even bother to have this checked. (Read this piece by Dr Steven Edelman from TCOYD for more on that.)

I have to say that I feel a lot of discomfort when I see A1c as such a focus. Some if it is for the reasons I’ve already stated, but also, it reinforces that we measure our success as PWD and how we are managing with this number. If my A1c went up this time, I really couldn’t care less. I’ve not long come off three weeks of holidays where diabetes barely interrupted the flow of sunshine, sea and sleep. And family, friends and food. I have not had a hypo in months. I have not had days of wanting ‘I hate diabetes’ tattooed across my forehead.

I went to my endo appointment last week still in slight January holiday mode. I completely forgot to call ahead for a pathology request – in fact, I’d forgotten all about the appointment until I was sent the text reminder a few days earlier. I used to think it was a waste of time not showing up without results waiting for me. But I wasn’t really all that concerned this time. I had some other information at hand including how much time I am spending in range. That gave me enough to focus on before I moved onto other things I wanted to talk about: the things that are really important to me with my diabetes.

Living well with diabetes is about so many factors. Those factors will be different for different people (and yes – A1c may be how some people consider living well).

As someone who has had really dark times with diabetes, it’s the light times that demonstrate how well I am doing. Those times may not be the times that I am ticking boxes that we are told gauge our success. They have certainly not been times necessarily marked with a low or in-range A1c. They are the times when the impact of diabetes is lightest. When it dances across my conscious rather than lives there. When it casts a gentle shadow rather than a thunderous cloud. A1c has never had anything to do with that.

I walk into a room of people. It’s a work meeting, and I am with a couple of colleagues. We’re greeted by about 8 others who all work for a large diabetes-related organisation. Two or three are from their Australian office, the rest have travelled from Europe. They’re here to meet with people working in the diabetes space to get an idea of the landscape in Australia.

We take our seats at a U-shaped table; we’re brought coffees. Introductions start. One of the overseas visitors tells us a bit about who he is, and rounds out his introduction by saying ‘I have type 1 diabetes. And I use Dexcom,’ he says, looking straight at me.

It’s summer in Melbourne and I am wearing a short-sleeved top. The Dex adorning the top of my left arm is clearly visible. I smile at him. ‘Snap!’ I say.

The meeting continues, with a lot of discussions and chatter. My new friend asks a lot of questions, some directed at me. I know what he is doing – it’s that thing people with diabetes who are ‘working in’ diabetes do. We try to learn how others manage living with a condition and working it too.

The meetings winds up; people start to chat with each other, continuing on from some of the discussions we’ve just had.

And the two PWD immediately turn to walk to each other. We shake hands and fall into an easy conversation. We speak about the challenge and responsibility of having diabetes while working in the space. We ask each other more questions and we listen carefully. And then we talk about our own diabetes, starting with ‘When were you diagnosed?’. I want to know how he found being diagnosed with diabetes after having already worked for a number of years for a diabetes-related organisation. We work out if we will be at any of the same meetings or conferences throughout the year.

The meeting is over. We shake hands again, and say good bye.

I walk to the elevator with my colleagues, thinking about the different ways people with diabetes connect. It happens like this. We find each other in a room. We see each other in a café. We opportunistically meet in a gelati shop. We bump into each other on the street. And we talk. We learn from each other. We gather information. We feel connected.

We get it.

I walked into my endo’s office yesterday, and was greeted by the receptionist with a smile (and by name). ‘You’re next; shouldn’t be too long,’ she said to me.

I was especially grateful for the welcome I received yesterday. Because earlier in the day I’d started the search for a new GP. It hadn’t gone well.

My quite awesome GP who I’d been seeing for almost twenty years decided to move interstate which is incredibly inconvenient. For me. But apparently it was a good opportunity for his family, so off they went and now I am left GP-less. Because, yes, it’s all about me.

So, I’ve been looking and asking friends in the area who they see and if they would recommend them. There is a woman at the same practice as my previous GP who I quite like, and a few people had suggested. I’d seen her a few times when my GP had been on leave, and she knows my convoluted medical history. But when I rang for an appointment the other day, I was told she was booked up until March. M-A-R-C-H. Over a month away. I was told that I could call at 8.20 the next morning as they keep a few on-the-day appointments, but there was no guarantee I could see the GP I wanted.

I sighed and said that I’d call back the following day. And when I did, there were no appointment times with the doctor I wanted. Continuity of care is important to me – I don’t want to have to explain the CGM on my arm, the pump down my bra, the way I manage my diabetes each time I need a quick visit to the GP for a UTI, or sore throat that won’t go away.

I decided that I probably needed to find another doctor, so I called another clinic that had been recommended to me. I didn’t speak to the receptionist. But I did hear the hold message.

Firstly, the calm voice on the recording told me that the doctors at the clinic all had lots of experience and were there to serve the local community, and that the whole clinic operated under a philosophy of patient-centred care. ‘Excellent,’ I thought. ‘That’s a buzz phrase I like. Good start’.

But then came a shopping list of things that callers should know before pressing hash to speak with someone.

  • Appointments can only be made before midday. If you call outside those hours, you will be asked to call back the following day
  • Same day appointments can only be made between 8.30am and 9.30am, although most will be taken by 8.45am
  • Doctors generally will not take or return calls from patients unless this has been agreed upon during an appointment
  • No results given over the phone by doctors (or anyone else); you need to a follow up appointment
  • No bulk billing is offered (even for people on a HCC)
  • If you are late, you will miss your appointment
  • You will not be contacted if the GP is running late
  • But you should call to see if the GP is on time
  • Missed appointments (by the patient) incur a no-show fee
  • If you want a referral (even to an existing specialist) you must make an appointment to see the doctor
  • Ongoing referrals will not be provided
  • If you want a prescription (even for an existing medication) you must make an appointment to see the doctor.

After listening to the message three times – just to make sure that I had everything correct – I hung up. There was literally not a single thing on that list that could be considered to be patient-centred.

Before I go on, I want to say that I know that GPs are overworked. I know that they are underpaid. I know that there are too many people trying to get into see them, and their time is precious. I can’t even imagine what it takes to run a GP clinic – or a clinic for any discipline really. I assume that there will be some using the service who have unreasonable expectations and demand that a doctor be available to them at all times of the day and night. So, rules are needed to deal with those sorts of people.

I am not one of those people. I am, however, a person who lives with type 1 diabetes and sometimes, I need a prescription for insulin because I thought I had another repeat left, or my current prescription has expired, or I lost the last one, or the littlest dog ate it (hasn’t happened, but wouldn’t put it past her). Or I need a referral to one of the other specialists I get to see semi-regularly (such as my dermatologist for psoriasis, rheumatologist for psoriatic arthritis, OB/GYN for gynae stuff etc.). And I definitely appreciate an ongoing referral, because, you know, diabetes doesn’t go away and I will need to see my endo forever (or until she retires, at which point I’ve decided I’ll give up this diabetes palaver too).

I don’t think these are unreasonable requests to have of a GP clinic. I don’t expect to be bulk billed. I am not asking for a diagnosis over the phone; or a phone consultation. But surely, it’s a waste of time (mine and the doctor’s) for me to need an appointment for a prescription for a drug that I will need to take FOREVER, and dose myself. Or for an annual referral to a doctor I’ve been seeing for over seventeen years for a health condition that I’ve had for almost twenty-one years. Or to be told that my A1c (or whatever else is being checked) is in range.

I wrote last week about how we get burnt out with needing to be advocates for ourselves. I felt a wave of that hit me as I listened to the list of rules from the GP clinic I will not be going to. I don’t want to start by giving a medical history … and then needing to beg for a little flexibility in their rules.

Does this make me sound like a princess? Maybe. Does it make me sound unreasonable? Perhaps it does.

But healthcare settings cannot have it both ways. They cannot promise that they are patient-centred if they are actively setting rules that make it more difficult – and exhausting – for us to live with a chronic health condition.

One day, I won’t be anxious when waiting to see my lovely endocrinologist. Today’s not that day.

Last year, the (current) Australian Prime Minister said that in Australia ‘If you have a go, you get a go’.

What a great sentiment on which to build a nation. Have a go, get a go. Sounds so easy. And you know what? It is. For people like our PM. And, I freely admit and recognise, people like me.

In diabetes, we hear this sentiment in a number of different ways: if you follow your diabetes plan, you’ll be fine. If you keep in line with guidelines, everything will be okay. In fact, you won’t just be fine. You’ll thrive! Because, diabetes can’t/won’t/doesn’t/shouldn’t stop us.

I spoke with someone at the end of last year who said that there was no excuse for people in Australia to not thrive with diabetes because we have ‘free’ healthcare and access to everything we need to do well.

Let’s just unpick that for a minute. Firstly, our healthcare in Australia isn’t ‘free’. It’s taxpayer funded – which is exactly how it should be. It is, however, important to acknowledge that it is not free because often, when we think something is free, we think it has no value. We take it for granted, or, even worse, we take advantage of it, and don’t realise just how significant and valuable it is. I couldn’t out a price on free healthcare to be honest. But I feel incredibly lucky to have been born in a country that has it!

Also, it’s all good and well to say that people have access to all that is needed to thrive, but there is a massive assumption that people actually know what they need, know why they need it, know how to access it, and know what to do with it once they have it.

It’s true that here in Australia we have universal healthcare . But it’s not fair or correct to think that everyone has the same ability to get the best out of the system. Or anything at all out of the system to be honest.

Expecting all people with diabetes to thrive is setting us up to not measure up. And it tells us that it’s not enough to just get by. Surviving isn’t adequate. Being alive isn’t sufficient. We need to go above and beyond all that.

I don’t know about other people with diabetes, but I feel a great pressure to thrive all the time. Honestly, it feels that I don’t have any excuse for that not to be the case. Latest tech – check; easy and affordable access to insulin, diabetes supplies and healthcare – check, check, check; health literate – check; loud and assertive advocate – (annoyingly for any healthcare professional who has to deal with me) check; support network to bring me cake, have my back and cheer me on as needed – check.

What do I have in the way preventing me from thriving? And just how is diabetes stopping me?

The concept of thriving with diabetes comes from a position of privilege. There are some people who really are just getting through, day by day, because diabetes is just so bloody hard for them. For some, diabetes doesn’t even get a look in because, quite frankly, there is more going on that takes precedence in their mind, their life and their day-to-day existence.

The truth for me is this: I don’t really feel as though I am thriving. I feel I am getting along. I’m not running marathons or climbing mountains or swimming channels. There is nothing I am conquering in the name of, or despite, diabetes. Instead, I’m happy to chase sunsets and sit in the fresh air and drink iced coffee to try to keep cool in the endless heatwave we seem to be having. I’m not complaining about it, because even though I feel this pressure, I’ve made peace with being a diabetes underachiever. I don’t need to be somebody else’s version of a diabetes superhero. I just need to do my own version of diabetes.

Magic Melbourne sunsets

While you’re here….

There are, of course, places around the world, where talk of thriving with diabetes simply cannot happen. Being alive with diabetes is hard enough and survival is a constant battle.

February is nearly here (already?) and the 2019 Spare a Rose campaign already well underway. Can you make a donation to provide insulin to keep a child with diabetes alive?  No one should die because they can’t access insulin. You can help by going here and making a donation.

I read a powerful piece yesterday by Canadian writer, speaker and health advocate, Sue Robins. She has years of experience as a family advocate (her son has Down Syndome), and then, after being diagnosed with cancer, a patient in the health system.

Sue’s post was about her decision to withdraw from the world of patient engagement. Clearly, it was not an easy decision, but one that she felt she needed to make for her own wellbeing. No one could ever blame her.

So much of what I read in Sue’s piece resonated. The desperation she beautifully and eloquently outlined is something that I keenly have felt (feel?). And I know it’s not just me. I see that in the eyes of others trying to elevate the role of ‘patients’ and to ensure that we are truly listened to, and treated with the respect, compassion and kindness we deserve, all the time.

I get the constant battle that we have – and it does feel like a battle a lot of the time. On one hand we feel so invested in what is going on because it is happening to us directly. How can we feel any other way?

If we are living with the condition, it is personal beyond measure. If we are caring for someone and advocating for them, there is a different sense of pressure and investment. And if we decide that this is ‘a calling’ and do it professionally, there is a different again as we try to work within different parameters – the need to keep within the realms of what our work allows, and the less structured realities of actually living with a health condition.

For me, there is a mixture of the professional (because of my job) and the personal (because of my pancreas). I feel the push-pull of that daily.

I get tired. I get overwhelmed. I get discouraged. I get disengaged. I get disheartened.

I feel the system is broken and I feel how that goes on to break people. I have found myself at that breaking point on more than one occasion when the system is failing me, and equally, when I see it failing others and I can’t help.

Operating in a network with so many stakeholders is always difficult, but when each of those stakeholders seems to have a different mission, it becomes impossible. Because as much as we want to think that everyone’s mission is for the best outcome for the ‘patient’, I don’t know that that is necessarily true.

What I want when I walk into a hospital or a clinic appointment (or a GP appointment, pathology room, specialist check-up, operating surgery, or any other healthcare setting) is different to what the hospital administrators want, or the HCP, or policy makers, or any other stakeholder. Despite the claims of mission statements everywhere, it is undeniable that it is not the persons in the so-called person-centred care that direct outcomes.

Every single story we hear where someone is treated poorly, isn’t listened to, is blamed for their condition, is not given time or space to voice their needs, feels uncomfortable with how they have been spoken to, is another example of the system not being person-centred.

In diabetes, it could look like this:

  • A person not being given the option of using the device they want to manage their diabetes. I repeatedly hear people say that they were told they could not use the pump they want to use because their clinic doesn’t offer that one.
  • A person who is just diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, or needing to go on insulin to treat their type 2 diabetes being told that it was through their doing that this has happened.
  • It could be not being able to manage our diabetes as we do at home when we are in hospital – insulin is removed from us, pumps are taken away, we are not allowed to use CGM in hospital and must go back to using blood glucose monitoring, not being able to eat the foods that we want because we must have the ‘diabetic menu’.
  • A diabetes-related complication diagnosis is met with judgement instead of information about how to move forward.
  • A person with diabetes being denied the time they need to speak about what is really concerning them, instead appointments following a formula that is unable to be adjusted.

It also looks like being excluded from the consultation, development, coordination and evaluation of programs, services, activities and resources that we are meant to use and find useful.

I don’t say these things because I think HCPs are out to get us, or that hospital admin teams are trying to make our lives hell, or that policy makers don’t care. I understand that everyone is working in trying times with funding cuts that are crippling the system. I know there are guidelines that need to be followed.

But at the end of the day, diabetes is our life. Melinda Seed has said ‘We have skin in the game’, a term I use when talking about the safety of using DIYAPS. We mean it literally as well as figuratively.

Again – I am not in any way minimising the commitment and dedication that HCPs have to working in healthcare. I genuinely believe that almost all are there trying to improve our lives and help us make sense of what is going on in our bodies.

But our desired outcomes are different. My KPIs when I walk out of a HCP appointment include feeling positive, feeling listened to and knowing how to move forward until my next appointment. I need to feel that I am equipped, motivated and encouraged.

We can read stories like Sue’s and shrug and say that she is burnt out. Burn out is almost inevitable when living with, or advocating for someone, with a life-long condition. But we shouldn’t be getting burnt out by the system. We get that enough when our bodies decide to start working against us. We need the health system to be working for us. And with us.

Under a month to Valentine’s Day and that means the Spare A Rose, Save a Child campaign is kicking off soon. #SpareARose is a DOC-led initiative encouraging people to make a small – or large – donation to support Life for a Child.

It’s really simple. In fact, as easy as…There will be more – lots more – in coming weeks, so stay tuned.

(By the way: the website you need for more info or to make a donation is THIS ONE.)

It’s hot in Melbourne today and it’s going to get warmer over the next few days. I’m loving the bone-warming sun that just makes everything look so sparkly and bright. So, I’m spending as much time as possible soaking up the rays (and adding to the ridiculous tan mark around my Dex), because the cooler weather will be here before I know it. I’m trying to build up those vitamin D stores to last me for when winter hits here and I’m reliant on quick trips to the northern hemisphere for work to see the sunshine and warmer temperatures.

Anyway, diabetes doesn’t take a break over the summer. Or winter. Which means, there is always lots to read and see about it. Here are some of the things I’m catching up on now.

Hospital life in pictures

This piece from the guardian will break your heart. Explained pictorially, it’s easy to see that the medical system is broken, medical education is broken, hospitals can be incredibly cold and anxiety inducing places, doctors are at breaking point. And patients in the system are left to deal with the fallout from the disarray.

IDF comps

The International Diabetes Federation is working to reduce the stigma association with diabetes-related complications, with a focus on how the language used can make people feel judged and stigmatised. Last year, they launched the #DiabetesComplicationsTalk Facebook page, encouraging people with diabetes to share stories and support each other.

It’s really great to see the IDF in the #LanguageMatters space, encouraging people to openly speak about diabetes-related complications to help reduce the stigma associated with them. More here.

Diabetes Voice

Still on news from the IDF, the organisation’s quarterly magazine is now available electronically. The first edition is an absolute cracker. Start with this incredibly powerful piece from editor, Elizabeth Snouffer, about diabetes-related stigma. Read it. Share it.

Patient Revolution

If you’ve not checked out the Patient Revolution website, now is a great time to have a look.

Start with this page, which is a library of stories you can click through, finding any specific topics that you are interested in.

Also, there is a Patient Revolution chat which uses the hashtag #WhyWeRevolt. To keep up to date with their chats, and to take part, follow @PatientRev on Twitter.

1,200 mason jars

Do you ever find yourself in the midst of a Twitter thread, wishing, in equal measure, that you hadn’t started, but can’t get enough of it? Sometimes these threads are diabetes-related; sometimes they’re not. Go here for one that is definitely not.

I have spent far too much time in the last week invested in this bizarre tale. There is a lot to take away from the whole saga – maybe starting with: don’t pay USD$169 to hear someone ‘teach’ you how to ‘be you’. And there are a lot of unanswered questions, such as what the hell is going to happen to the mason jars.

Happy reading. (You may need a drink …)

Diabetes in the US

I will never understand the US health system. My head and heart hurt as I hear the struggles of friends with diabetes, and the difficulties they have accessing insulin, and diabetes tech and supplies.

This piece from the New York Times talks about non-medical switching, where insurance companies decide which drugs (and devices) they will cover and subsidise. In Australia, the government decides which drugs will be listed on the PBS (Pharmaceutical Benefits Scheme). If a drug is on there, it is the same price for everyone who has a prescription. There are some drugs that require a special prescription to be provided at the subsidised price. But there is no extra negotiating or pleading, or any involvement, with insurance companies.

In a system that is broken beyond measure, this seems like one more roadblock to make just surviving with a condition such as diabetes impossible.

Going beyond

Beyond Type 1 has grown to include a new platform for people with type 2 diabetes. Check it out!

Real life Loop stories

The team at diaTribe has a new series of personal stories of people who have been using DIYAPS solutions. Adam Brown’s story was first, and Kelly Close has now offered her experiences. Such a great idea to get a number of different insights into what has worked, what hasn’t and hopes for the future of DIYAPS.

Sharing and caring

Also from diaTribe, this great piece from Kerri Sparling which provides her own and others’ perspectives on sharing of CGM data. There is no one way to share data – it is personal, individual and can change over time, depending on circumstances. Some choose to; others don’t. I love this piece because it is balanced and offers some interesting thoughts.

Ascensia and CGM

More tech choices for people with diabetes is always great to hear, so Ascensia’s recent announcement of their move into the CGM market has been met with enthusiasm from the community. Read their release here and Diabetes Mine’s take on the announcement here.

SoMe at conferences

I believe social media engagement and use at all health conferences is a critical and necessary part of any communication strategy. There is no better, easier or more effective way to share details of the conference that by encouraging the people attending to broadcast using their own social media networks.

This article explores that, referencing the ridiculous photo ban at ADA in 2017 (which thankfully was changed in 2018).

Menopause and T1D blog

Sarah Gatward is a blogger from the UK and she is writing a series sharing her experiences of living type 1 diabetes and going through menopause. Yes! And thank you, Sarah. Start here.

NDSS reminder

Now is a good a time as any to make sure your NDSS details are up to date. Remember – the NDSS is not just about subsidised diabetes supplies. It also provides information and support for people affected by diabetes.

Go here to make sure your registration details are correct.

Bin the fax

All my dreams came true when I read this article in the Limbic today! Finally calls to get rid of the archaic fax machine in health care. Halle-bloody-lujah!

 

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