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Sometimes, I’m a lousy person with diabetes (PWD). I am thoughtless and unclear about what I need, have ridiculous expectations of others – and myself, and am lazy. But I’m not always like that. And I think I know what I need to do to be better.

Being a better PWD is about being true to myself. It is also about reflecting on exactly what I need and I hope to get it.

  • I need to remember that diabetes is not going away
  • I need to remember that the here and now is just as important as the future
  • I need to remember that I don’t have to like diabetes, but I have to do diabetes
  • I need to remember that the diabetes support teams around me really only have my best interest at heart, and to go easy on them when I am feeling crap
  • I need to empty my bag of used glucose strips more frequently to stop the strip glitter effect that follows me wherever I go
  • I need to remember that it is not anyone else’s job to understand what living with my brand of diabetes is all about
  • I need to remember that the frustrating and tiresome nature of diabetes is part of the deal
  • I need to be better at changing my pump line regularly
  • I need my diabetes tasks to be more meaningful – quit the diabetes ennui and make smarter decisions
  • And I need to own those decisions
  • I need to see my endocrinologist
  • I need to decide what I want to do with my current diabetes technology. There is nothing new coming onto the market that I want, but what about a DIY project to try something new? #OpenAPS anyone…?
  • Or, I need to work out how to convince the people at TSlim to launch their pump here in Australia
  • I need to check and adjust my basal rates
  • I need to do more reading about LCHF and decide if I want to take a more committed approach or continue with the somewhat half-arsed, but manageable and satisfactory way I’m doing it now
  • I need to remind myself that my tribe is always there and ask for help when I need it.
  • I need to make these!

And being a better PWD is knowing what I need from my HCPs and working out how to be clear about it, rather than expecting them to just know. (I forget that Legilimency is not actually something taught at medical school. #HarryPotterDigression)

So, if I was to sit down with my HCPs (or if they were to read my blog), this is what I would say:

  • I need you to listen
  • I need you to tell me what you need from me as well. Even though this is my diabetes and I am setting the agenda, I do understand that you have some outcomes that you would like to see as well. Talk to me about how they may be relevant to what I am needing and how we can work together to achieve what we both need.
  • I need you to be open to new ideas and suggestions. My care is driven by me because, quite simply, I know my diabetes best. I was the one who instigated pump therapy, CGM, changes to my diet and all the other things I do to help live with diabetes
  • I need you to understand that you are but one piece of the puzzle that makes up my diabetes. It is certainly an important piece and the puzzle cannot be completed without you, but there are other pieces that are also important
  • I need you to remember that diabetes is not who I am, even though it is the reason you and I have been brought together
  • And to that – I need you to understand that I really wish we hadn’t been brought together because I hate living with diabetes
  • I need you to remember that I set the rules to this diabetes game. And also, that there are no rules to this diabetes game
  • I need you to understand that I feel very fortunate to have you involved in my care. I chose you because you are outstanding at what you, sparked an interest and are able to provide me what I need
  • I need you to know that I really want to please you. I know that is not my job – and I know that you don’t expect it – but I genuinely don’t want to disappoint you and I am sorry when I do
  • I want you to know that I respect and value your expertise and professionalism
  • I need you to know that I hope you respect and value mine too.

And being a better PWD is being clear to my loved ones (who have the unfortunate and unpleasant experience of seeing me all the time – at my diabetes best and my diabetes worst) and helping them understand that:

  • I need you to love me
  • I need you to nod your heads when I say that diabetes sucks
  • I need you to know I don’t need solutions when things are crap. But a back rub, an episode of Gilmore Girls or a trip to Brunetti will definitely make me feel better, even if they don’t actually fix the crapness
  • Kid – I need you to stop borrowing my striped clothes. And make me a cup of tea every morning and keep an endless supply of your awesome chocolate brownies available in the kitchen
  • Aaron – I like sparkly things and books. And somewhere, there is evidence proving that both these things have a positive impact on my diabetes. In lieu of such evidence, trust and indulge me!
  • I need you to know I am sorry I have brought diabetes into our  lives
  • I need you to know how grateful I am to have you, even when I am grumpy and pissed because I am low, or grumpy and pissed because I am high, or grumpy and pissed because I am me.

Today, I gave a talk to healthcare professionals at a hospital in outer Melbourne. I was invited months ago after the organisers heard me speak at another event, and they wanted me to speak about living with diabetes.

As I said in the introduction to my talk, I am dead boring. Plus, I am only one voice. So, to create some balance and some interest, I reached out through Facebook and asked this:

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As usual, the online community didn’t disappoint. I had over forty responses and weaved them into my presentation, adding real impact to what I was saying, reinforcing my comments with the comments of others walking a similar path of life with diabetes.

I started by asking the audience a question…

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And then I said that I would be talking about life with diabetes. Except, I reminded the audience that life with diabetes was very different depending on where in the world you were diagnosed and that my story is about my ‘first world diabetes’ and I checked my privilege almost as a disclaimer.

I used that point in my talk as an opportunity to speak about those who cannot access or afford insulin and how this is simply, not okay. I could sense the surprise in the room as I said that people are dying because of lack of access.

 

Then I spoke about what diabetes is to me and here is what I said:

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It’s boring and tedious and frustrating.

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It’s made me an expert. And that we need our HCPs to acknowledge the hours and hours and effort we put into managing our own brand of diabetes and the expertise we develop from living so closely with this condition.

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It’s about humour – because laughing is a tool I use to get through this and that’s okay.

jrwiv9f2It’s about words, because language matters and sticks with us forever.

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It’s about stigma. I asked if they could think of another condition that was so stigmatised and surrounded by blame – and that while we experience it with type 1 diabetes, I said that I believed my brothers and sisters with type 2 diabetes have it so much worse.

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It’s invisible – despite the bright blue patch surrounding my Dexcom, most of the time it is hidden away and not on show for all to see.

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It’s about people and community and the DOC and the people that are like the air I breathe – without whom I would not be managing at all.

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It’s about my family. And then I explained, fighting back tears, that this is the hardest part of life with diabetes for me. I’ve written about it a lot, spoken about it often. But thinking about how diabetes impacts on Aaron and the kidlet breaks – absolutely shatters – my heart into pieces. The worry I cause my parents makes me feel guilty and resentful. And every day I regret the time I told my sister that my life expectancy had been cut thanks to my type 1 diagnosis because I will never forget the look in her eyes indicating the pain I had just caused her.

I answered a couple of questions and then my talk was done. I thanked the audience for listening, stepped down from the stage, took a deep breath. Someone came up to me as I was gathering my bags and said that she learnt more about real life with diabetes in that talk than in all her years nursing.

This is the power of story telling. The comments I read out and shared have so much power in them. We need to keep telling our stories, turning the way we talk about diabetes on its head. It’s not about the numbers, the tools or anything else. It is about people.

Thank you so much to everyone who shared their comments with me on my Facebook post yesterday and today. 

Yesterday, I had my annual eye screening. In an endeavour to calm me as much as possible from the anxiety I feel about this annual check-up, I made plans so that it would be the same as my check every year. My dad drove me there, sitting in the waiting room while I faced my fears in the doctor’s office.

I have been going to the same eye specialist centre for 15 years. I’ve seen the same ophthalmologist the whole time and his orthoptist has been the same absolutely delightful woman. She does a super job of calming me down, checking my vision and eye pressure and popping in the dilating drops. And then she sends me off to see her boss so he can have a look at the back of my eyes.

‘The main event’ part of my appointment is always fairly similar and I am fine with that. I know what to expect, I know the order of things and I know that I will have an opportunity to talk about anything concerning me.

We start with my ophthalmologist asking me how I have been and what has changed in my life over the last 12 months. I mentioned that I had changed jobs and we had a chat about that for a moment.

Then he asks if there have been any changes with my diabetes in that period and is always pleased (as am I!) when I report on the mostly boring nature of my diabetes. At this point, he usually asks about my family and any recent travels.

And then, the eye exam. The lights go out, I rest my chin on the contraption and he spends a good 10 to 15 minutes having a look at my eyes, explaining what he is looking at, what he is looking for and, most importantly to me, what he can see.

Or – what he can’t see. I am always hoping that he can’t see any diabetes-related eye disease.

‘Remind me how old you are, Renza,’ he said as he turned the lights back on.

‘I’m turning 43 at the end of the month,’ I said, blinking furiously as my dilated pupils tried to get used to the suddenly bright overhead lights.

And you’ve had diabetes for 18 years, right?’ he asked.

‘Eighteen and a half…,’ I said.

‘There is absolutely no diabetes-related anything going on in your eyes, Renza. It is all good news from me.  You should be really pleased.’

‘I am,’ I said, nodding. I could feel my breathing starting to return to normal, unaware until that moment that I’d been holding my breath.

‘Okay. So…I’ll see you in a year. Of course, come back sooner if there are any changes. But first, is there anything else you wanted to mention?’

‘Oh – yes!’ I suddenly remembered that I had written myself a note in my phone. ‘I have noticed that my eyes have been really watery lately – maybe in the last couple of months. I can’t go outside without tears streaming down my face. It’s a little better if I am wearing sunglasses, but not always.’

‘Let’s have a look,’ he said. ‘It could be a blocked tear duct.’

‘Wait – what are you going to do…?’ Panic was setting in again!

‘Just tilt your head back for a second and I’ll pop some drops in first. And then I’ll do what I need to do.’

I knew that it was not the moment to ask exactly what was going on. I also knew that he has been my eye specialist for 15 years and knows me and my anxieties. And I also know that I trust him completely! I could hear paper rustling – the sound of something sterile being freed from its package.

Renza, I want you to look right up over your head for a second.’ At that point, I saw the syringe. ‘Okay – in a second, you are going to feel some saline running down the back of your throat. Nothing to worry about.’

And at the moment I tasted the salt I realised that THERE WAS A NEEDLE IN MY EYE. AND I WAS AWAKE. And I was not screaming. Or in any pain.

‘That one is fine,’ he said. ‘Let me check the other one.’ And he repeated the procedure, again announcing all to be okay. ‘It’s all fine – nothing to worry about at all.’

‘Great,’ I said. ‘Um…did you just stick a needle in my eye?’

‘I will never say,’ he said, smiling at me.

‘I think we need to acknowledge this new phase of our relationship. I feel I have really grown as an eye patient.’ I said as I gathered up my bag. I thanked him for his time – but really I was thanking him for the awesome ‘report’ and the lovely way he deals with me.

‘I’ll see you next time, Renza. Everything is looking really good.’

I walked out of the room. My dad looked up from the magazine he was reading and stood up. ‘All okay?’ he asked. I nooded. ‘Told you!’ he said – just like he always does.

I smiled. ‘Guess what? I just had a needle stuck IN MY EYE.’ I told him. ‘Did you hear me? A NEEDLE STUCK IN MY EYE.’

I settled the account and made an appointment for the end of next year at the front desk and we got into the elevator. ‘I just had a needle in my eye,’ I said, this time quietly and mostly to myself.

And my eyes are all clear.’

 We walked to the car. All done for another year.

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Pupil still slightly dilated. But an all-clear from the ophthalmologist.

Today, I just want to follow up a little about one of the points I wrote about yesterday in my post about the event I attended on Tuesday evening about diabetes-related foot complications, specifically this point made my A/Prof Ramon Varcoe:

He explored how we make people with diabetes know this technique for saving limbs is available, and said that it is really, really important to inform PWD about it so that they can ASK for it and not just accept a diagnosis of requiring an amputation. He said that this was the group that could really drive change here, by demanding that they have the best treatment possible.

This had me thinking long and hard. I agree with A/Prof Varcoe here, but that is not really a surprise. I am so much about consumer-led healthcare, that I dream about it (sad, but true).

Mostly, I thought about it in context of my own diabetes care and how it has happened that I am such a DTech nerd. I decided after about two years of living with diabetes that I wanted to use an insulin pump. I really just could not get the hang of the MDI situation I had been put on at diagnosis and was the living embodiment of why Protophane was referred to as Protopain.

I went to an information session and heard a women speaking about how much she loved using an insulin pump and what a difference it had made for her quality of life. Afterwards, I spoke with her and by the end of our chat, was convinced. I wanted one of those! (Impressionable little thing, aren’t I? #MarketersDream) This woman would become my pump trainer and the only diabetes educator I have ever seen.

At my next endo appointment, I marched in with the research I had done, the questions I needed answered and an expectation that by the end of the consultation, I would leave with details of how and when and where I would be getting my pump. Ha, the naivety!

My endo was absolutely not keen for me to take the pump road, ‘You’ve not had diabetes long enough,’ he told me, which confused me no end, because it already felt like a lifetime. ‘I think we should talk about this again after you’ve had diabetes for about 5 years. Yes?’

Well, no. That was the last time I saw him. I spent the next six months endo shopping until I found one that (I was promised) would agree to helping me on a way to a pump. I walked in and made it very clear why I was there and he nodded straight away. ‘Yep – we can do that,’ and picked up the phone. And about three months later, I was a pumper. This particular endo and I parted ways not long after because I needed someone who was far more expert in the diabetes and pregnancy track I wanted to embark, but I have always been grateful that I found him and his open attitude to diabetes technology.

When CGM was launched into Australia, I spoke to my diabetes educator and asked her to fill in the required paperwork to get me sensing. She sent the form off the day we spoke.

And the same has happened when I have wanted to change or upgrade diabetes devices.

What I am trying to say is that this has all been led by me. So when A/Prof Varcoe spoke about the importance and value of connecting with PWD and telling them about these new vascular procedures to save limbs and prevent major amputations, it made perfect sense. He urged that we needed PWD to be the ones who, if told they needed to have an amputation, spoke up and asked for a second or third opinion, specifically asking about the very procedure he had just discussed.

This ground swell of action is what causes change, but we need to know exactly what to ask for. It’s far more effective to ask the question ‘Can my artery be revascularised? I understand there is surgery than can do that and may prevent the need for a major amputation.’ rather than just ‘Is there nothing more than can be done?’

So many of the people with diabetes I know are using particular drugs or devices because they have asked for them – not because they were recommended or suggested by their HCP. And this is why PWD need to have all the information. This is why device companies should be going straight to the consumer to share information, not expecting it to happen through HCPs. (I know that there has been discomfort from some HCPs at Abbott’s direct to consumer promotion of Libre – and the fact that PWD can order themselves without needing to see a HCP, but why would that be the case?)

But it is more than just making sure the information is there for PWD to know and see. It is a complete and utter reshaping of a system that a lot of times actually isn’t about empowerment. There are still too many ‘old school’, patriarchal attitudes that dictate care choices to the PWD instead of accepting and encouraging us to lead the way for our own care. I think things are changing, but I also think they are changing far too slowly.

This photo* sums up why I do what I do, and why many people think I sound like a broken record, with a vocabulary of a mere seven words. Specifically, these seven words: ‘Have you spoken to people with diabetes?’

Because so often, the answer is ‘No’. Or ‘No – we’ll be doing that after we have had some meetings.‘ Or ‘Yes – we spoke to you‘ at which point I remind them that I pointed out when they did indeed speak to me that they should find other people with diabetes to speak with. Because I am but one person and speak for no one other than me. (Or, perhaps, another woman in her 40s who loves Nutella, boots, coffee, lives in inner-Melbourne, waves her hands around madly while speaking reallyreallyreallyreally fast, can recite Marx Bros movies from start to end, has what some would call an irrational fear of birds (and butterflies), can sing (badly) pretty much any song from the 1980s, has over 25 striped t-shirts in her cupboard and is battling an eleven year old daughter who has decided that she too loves stripes and wants to borrow all her mother’s clothes.)

Most people are not like that. (Fortunately.)

Anyway, this picture also demonstrates that those who have the privilege of designing services, activities, programs, settings for people with diabetes often miss the point – perhaps not by much, but nonetheless, they miss it. It’s usually because they forgot to ask us, or asked as too late, or didn’t keep coming back and asking and checking in. And then, when we don’t use what they design, we are branded ‘non-compliant’ or ‘disengaged‘ or ‘not interested in our health’, when the truth of the matter is that their design (without our input) just doesn’t fit our needs.

I have given so many talks and written so many pieces about this. But perhaps all I need is this on a t-shirt, tattooed to my arm (forehead?) and on the back of my business cards. Don’t design before speaking to the user. It’s actually really easy!

(*I don’t know the source of this photo, but if anyone does, please let me know so I can credit appropriately.)

I chaired an interesting session at the Roche Educators’ Day last week (it’s the kick-off event to ADS ADEA each year, held the day before the official conference starts) presented by Sydney endocrinologist Professor Steven Boyages.

The session was called ‘A connected ecosystem for healthcare professionals and their patients.(We’ll just ignore the use of the word ‘their’ because, quite frankly, I don’t belong to my HCP, but this post is not about language, so let’s move on….)

Steven started by highlighting there is nowhere to hide when it comes to the online world and diabetes (or any healthcare, really) with this statement: ‘Be prepared: patients will already have looked you up on line.’ (Indeed – the first thing I did when asked to chair his session was Google Professor Steven Boyages. Then I found him on Twitter!) He went on to dismiss any luddite attitudes with the comment ‘If I can do it, you can do it!’

Other important points included that healthcare has – and continues – to move away from being a patriarchal system where what the doctor says goes. And that technology is here to stay. In the case of diabetes, more and more people are expecting their HCP to be as tech savvy as we are, not only knowing about the latest technology, but also being able to use it.

But perhaps the most controversial part of Steven’s talk was when he asked this question: ‘What business are we in?’ Voices across the audience responded with ‘Healthcare’, ‘Caring for people’, and even just ‘People’. He shook his head and paused. ‘No,’ he said. ‘We’re in the business of selling.’

And therein lies the challenge. Because when you look at it, it’s kind of true. HCPs are selling something – health. And to get there, we often need to make changes or do things we don’t particularly like. And that is a bloody hard sell. No one wants to follow directions all the time – especially if those directions include things like jabbing ourselves, or eating lots of green things. (In fact, Steven gave the example of GPs being asked to follow the same BGL monitoring they expect of PWD. Only two out of twenty managed to do it for the week of the trial.)

There needs to be a more attractive proposition and that has to incorporate the tools designed to make diabetes management easier. Those tools include devices and technology as well as communication channels. We expect our connectivity to be outside the 9 – 5 hours of the traditional office and, as Steven said, if we can’t get help from our healthcare team, we’ll find someone available. We already bypass HCPs for most of our decision making – whether it be through the use of technology or advice from peers.

Healthcare has been transformed in recent years, and it’s just the beginning. There will be more and more changes, and more and more expected of the system and those working within it. Which is why everyone needs to get smarter about using the devices, the structures and the data.

During the discussion time at the end of Steven’s talk, someone said, ‘But surely all these new apps and programs add time and we don’t have time.’ They were referring to the program that is used with a new blood glucose monitor. I was shocked at that comment, because it misses one of the key benefits to diabetes technology, so I was pleased with how Steven replied. ‘Not at all,’ he said. ‘In fact, if we are using the technology properly and empowering PWD to use it properly, they will be able to do a lot more of the trouble shooting themselves.’

Knowing how to use devices, understand the data and respond to the information has meant that I rarely need to get in touch with my HCPs outside of when I am actually having a consultation with them. Most of the time, I manage myself. Because I have the tools available and know how to use them.

Being in the business of selling health is indeed tough. The products being sold are not shiny new cars or the latest mobile phones. It’s often not something tangible that can be held up as something aspirational. But health? Surely that is something we all want. We just need some smarter ways to sell it – so that we are willing to buy!

DISCLAIMER

I was invited to chair two sessions at the Roche Educators Day last Tuesday at the ADS ADEA conference. Roche kindly funded my travel to the Gold Coast (my return travel and accommodation were covered by my work). Roche also registered me for the ADS ADEA conference, covering related costs. The also gave me a lovely box of chocolates, most of which I ate myself without sharing, because: chocolate!

I was super late for last night’s #OzDOC tweetchat, coming in for the second half of the lively discussion. The questions were about how HCPs can engage on healthcare social media (HCSM), and the answers were to assist physician Dr Kevin Lee who is presenting this very topic at the ADS-ADEA conference on the Gold Coast later this month.

In recent years, I have given and heard many talks about why HCPs might want to consider using SoMe as a tool to engage with PWD (or, more broadly – people with any health conditions), and also how they may find SoMe useful to engage with other diabetes HCPs.

Presenting at the 2013 ADS-ADEA meeting about social media and healthcare.

Maybe it’s just me, but I am bemused that usually these presentations are targeted at such an ‘entry’ level. Social media is not new. Healthcare social media is not new. And yet, the presentations about HCSM at most medical conferences all have a ‘101’ feel to them, as though it is emerging technology and a revolutionary and new way to communicate. It is neither of these!

In fact, communities gathering on social media is just peer support 2.0. (Which is what I wrote here. Three years ago….)

And yet, the anxiety around it is still present.

I suspect that there are several reasons for this nervousness.

Firstly, by its very nature, SoMe is unregulated, and I will fight to the death to say this is a good thing, not something to fear. Its organic, unstructured and unpredictable nature is part of its power.

Even in a facilitated forum, (such as as tweetchat), there is only limited control held by the moderator – and a good moderator knows that their role is sometimes to sit back and watch (and encourage) the flow of, and tangents in, the discussion – that is often where the magic happens!

HCPs considering venturing into the patient-held HCSM space (different from interacting with their peers) need to consider what they plan to do once there. Are they going to be providing advice? Or do they want to engage in discussions?  Perhaps they just want to quietly lurk, using it as a learning experience.

Whatever they choose do to, simply stepping in and having a look around will, hopefully, alleviate many of the concerns and fears they have about HCSM – especially once they understand there is no mystery to this way of communicating.

But I really do think that it is not our role as PWD using HCSM to provide a comfortable space for HCPs. And we shouldn’t feel the need to moderate our discussion for fear of who is listening in.

I have always considered social media to simply be a different way for having a conversation. There is no mystery behind it and there is nothing to fear. This thread from last night’s tweetchat sums this up perfectly! (Thanks, @MelindaSeed!)


 

 

 

So this happened….

Last night, I was the ‘here’s one we prepared earlier’ on a panel discussing CGM technology. The audience was all healthcare professionals – mostly DEs, but some dietitians, RNs and also a GP-in-training (so much yay to him for coming along!).

I love being in the room for these events! I wrote about my last experience giving the same talk here. I cannot speak highly enough of the two experts on the panel last night. Dr Peter Goss – who spoke at the last one of these events – is what I would call a disrupter in the diabetes healthcare space and, honestly, all the power to him. He may ruffle some feathers with his sometimes unorthodox approach, but it is undeniable that he is a champion for kids and teens (and young adults) with type 1 diabetes. Also on the panel was A/Professor David O’Neal who is best described as a truly awesome endo (I have heard that from every single person I know who sees him as their endo) and an absolutely brilliant mind. His expertise in diabetes tech is second to none and he is genuinely interested in how the technology can safely, efficiently and effectively be incorporated into the lives of people living with diabetes.

I know that all sounds rather effusive. But I need to point out that they are remarkable. And that they are the sorts of HCPs you want on your side if you are a person with diabetes.

Because now I am going to talk about language and why I pulled them up a little bit after we all did our presentations and sat on the stage ready to answer questions from the audience.

As happens frequently when I am in the room with a group of healthcare professionals, the conversation turned to language. Okay, I made that happen. In fact, the words I used were ‘I’m going to hijack this conversation because we really need to talk about language here.

One of my biggest pet peeves is the jokey, and somewhat snide, comments made about people with diabetes making up numbers in their diabetes log books. Because, it’s not a joke. It’s not something for HCPs to roll their eyes over and dismiss as ‘non-compliant’ behaviour.

The word that was used for PWD who make up numbers in their books was ‘fakers’. I cringed the moment I heard the word. And cringed even more at the audience’s response – laughter, heads shaking from side to side and knowing looks. I looked around the room and knew that we would be talking about this later on in the evening!

As I pointed out when the panel was seated on the stage, I absolutely did this. And I was incredibly good at it – different coloured pens, splotches of blood on the pages, dog-eared corners of the book. Once, I even splattered a few drops of juice, because on that particular page, I was having a lot of lows and I thought the juice would make it look more authentic.

Now, let’s all just remember for a moment that I was diagnosed as an adult. This wasn’t insolent teenager behaviour. This was a woman in her mid-twenties who was terrified of disappointing and being judged by the HCP to whom she would be handing the grotty book and its made up numbers.

I told the room my story of this last night and there was laughter – because the way I spoke about it was amusing. It was a cheeky anecdote. But at the time, it wasn’t funny. I was scared, I hated checking my BGL, I was paralysed by numbers that didn’t make sense and I didn’t know what to do about it. So I lied. Of course my HCPs knew that. And I knew my HCP knew.

But the question is about WHY people do this. The discussion needs to stop being about diabetes at that point, because really, managing BGLs and most other diabetes tasks is not the issue here. The issue is distress, anxiety, fear. And, in my case, I felt desperate.

One of the panellists made the point that the reason that he brought it up was because HCPs need to know what to do when someone is ‘faking’ their numbers. He’s right. I completely agree. And then there needs to be understanding of how to approach it, which is likely to be different with each PWD.

For me, it took until I found a HCP who I felt I could trust – one who wouldn’t judge the numbers that were out of range (which one HCP always circled in red pen, making me feel even more like a delinquent adolescent) – and was interested in knowing what was stopping me from feeling able to check my BGL.

When we worked through that, I was better equipped to not only regularly check my BGL, but also to deal with the numbers and act upon them. I came to understand that a number was nothing more than a piece of information that I could use to make a treatment decision – not an indication of me being a good or bad person.

Language does matter. And words count for a lot. Using the word ‘faker’ in this context is loaded with judgement and accusation, and even if that is not the intention, it made me – a person with diabetes – feel very uncomfortable. But mostly, it fails to consider the real problem at hand which is not that a PWD is making up numbers in a book. It is why they feel the need to do that.

Twitter is a great source of discussion and yesterday this tweet from a diabetes consultant in the UK certainly did start an interesting conversation that had me thinking.

I should point out a couple of things before going any further. The tweet, asking if lack of guidance in social media is a concern, was in response to a tweet from someone else who shared a post from a Facebook page about insulin omission for weight loss. This is a very serious issue – one that I have written about here, (and elsewhere), and worked on a lot in the last decade or so.

Also, the consultant was absolutely not suggesting that social media is a ‘bad’ thing, and he is actually an advocate and user of online platforms, so this is not about the individual. It is about the issue at large.

Obviously, I am a huge fan of social media. Apart from finding online – and more broadly, peer – support an important part of my own personal diabetes management, I have built a significant part of my career extolling the benefits of online connections and the value of sourcing information and support from others living with diabetes.

The changing landscape of diabetes information and support over the last ten or so years has been significant. With more and more available online, and more and more people being online, there has been a real shift from healthcare professionals being the keepers of information and deciding what people with diabetes SHOULD know to a more egalitarian framework from which to source what we need.

While some may believe this to be the end of civilisation as we know it, (dramatic, I know), I consider this change terrific, because instead of having very controlled and conservative information on offer, there is now a veritable smorgasbord of material – and knowledge – from which consumers can pick and choose. Personally – I love being able to do that. Hearing personal experiences and picking up tips and tricks about day-to-day life with diabetes contribute to me making decisions about how to manage my own condition.

One of the suggestions frequently made about how to safely use SoMe is for it to be better moderated. My argument is that the power and value of SoMe platforms is that it is not moderated. Being free to share my ideas and experiences without fear (or perhaps care?) of judgement is not only useful, but also cathartic. And getting feedback from my peers often provides a different lens through which I can view a situation. Much of what I have learnt would not be found in the pages of a textbook, or offered in the office of a HCP. And that’s fine – there are other very valuable and important considerations that are shared in that context.

The idea of moderating online support – or any peer support, actually – is about control. It can be packaged up into a nice parcel of ‘protecting’ the person seeking the information, but that is not only patronising, but also incredibly demeaning. There is enough of that going on in more traditional settings – peer support is where there is freedom from that control – and a freedom to explore different ideas.

For me, peer support has always been about finding my tribe and learning from them. It has been about finding a source of sustenance and care that makes me feel better about my situation. It’s never been about replacing or substituting what I get from my HCPs.

So what is the role of HCPs in our support space? My belief is that it is a place for them to learn. There are times that it may be appropriate – and even encouraged – for HCPs to step in and share. On Facebook, one of Australia’s leading CDEs frequently comments and adds to conversations in closed diabetes groups. Her professional advice is always spot on – never judgemental – and her personal perspective (she has diabetes herself) shows just how it is possible to blend the ‘What-I’m-told-I-should-do’ with the ‘And-this-is-what-works-in-real-life’.

But not everyone who wants to be involved in this space has diabetes, nor should we expect them to. But I think for me, I have a very clear understanding of online and peer support works – and what everyone’s role is. When this works well, it works because it is being led by PWD; they (we!) are the ones driving the discussion and the focus. It’s not dangerous. We don’t need guidance. Because it is our space and we own it.

What peer support means to me,

What peer support means to me,

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