The day after I was diagnosed with diabetes, I found myself in floods of tears, sitting in the stairwell of the Diabetes Victoria offices on Collins Street in Melbourne. I’d fled there from the NDSS shop that was housed on level three after suddenly feeling overwhelmed at the boxes and boxes of curious looking diabetes supplies that were about to be sent home with me. I was slumped against the wall, the emotion of the last twenty-four hours catching up with me. Someone came down the stairs and stopped. She crouched down and quietly said. ‘Hi. Are you okay?’
I wasn’t. Of course I wasn’t. ‘Can I sit here for a minute?’ she asked and somehow, through the tears, I nodded.
As it turned out, she was a diabetes educator working at Diabetes Victoria. And she also had type 1 diabetes. She spoke, I listened. And listened and listened. It was the first time I heard another person with diabetes share her experiences. She told me she too felt overwhelmed at times. And, she told me that right now – so new to it all – it feels so big, and that is perfectly understandable. She assured me that it would feel less big. She told me about bits of her life with diabetes and while she didn’t make it sound like bowls of cherries and puppy dogs, she took away tiny bit of the diagnosis fear that punches you right in the heart. Her stories made no sense at the time, but, as my own diabetes story grew, bit by bit, I understood her experiences.
I continue to search for stories today. I share some of mine – the things I feel comfortable sharing. And sometimes the things that aren’t all that comfortable.
I’m eternally grateful to that diabetes educator I met on 16 April, 1998. I told her repeatedly that her kind reassurance was the only brightness in those dark couple of days. I’m grateful to every other person who has so generously shared their lived experience. I never take it for granted – especially the reliving the trauma of difficult times.
And so tell your story. Only if you want.








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February 26, 2024 at 5:33 pm
tmlcp
I’ve never forgotten one Christmas day in the late 1970s/early 1980s. I was planning to drive up from Point Lonsdale with my three young kids to meet my family for our customary Christmas picnic at the Botanical Gardens. At the time I was a single mother.
I walked down to the local phone box the night before to check with Mum and Dad that the picnic in the gardens was still on, as the forecast was for a chance of rain. Dad assured me there was no change of plan, so next morning we set off and arrived at the arranged time … only to find nobody there.
We waited and waited, but nobody came. I was in a complete panic. If I didn’t get something to eat soon, my blood sugar was liable to drop to a dangerously low level. I would be stranded in the gardens with three young kids and possibly unconscious.
In those days I must have been relying largely on long-acting or mixed insulin.
I sent the kids off with some money to find the kiosk, to see if they could buy me some sweets or something, but it was closed.
Next I sent them across the road to the milkbar, but that was also closed.
Luckily I had brought along a rice salad, so eventually I ate the whole thing (stuffing it into my mouth with my hands). I still didn’t know if I was going to pass out or not.
(I can’t remember now why I wasn’t able to do a fingerprick blood test. Maybe I’d forgotten to bring my test kit … )
After we’d all been there, alone and starving, for quite a bit more than an hour, one of my brothers showed up. Mum had (finally!) sent him from their home in Kew to tell me that the party was going to be at their house after all.
I was furious. I had rung especially the night before and had been assured everyone would be at the Botanical Gardens.
I was also feeling quite sick and dizzy from panic and possibly dangerously low blood sugar.
And then … and then … I realised that my brother had come in his two-seater sports car!!
He couldn’t possibly drive all four of us to Mum’s.
I was in no condition to drive. I could have killed us all.
I had to explain to my brother (who had no clue what the problem was) that he needed to drive very slowly so that I could follow behind him, and that he needed to keep a close eye on me all the way.
When we finally arrived at Mum’s place, did I get an apology? No.
Did they realise what danger they had put me and the kids in? No.
Even Dad, a doctor, who should have known better, had no clue of the possible consequences of what they had done.
When I tried, urgently and anxiously, to explain the issue, I was shouted at by Mum that I wasn’t allowed to get angry or I would ruin everyone’s Christmas.
I went to the spare room and spent most of the afternoon on the bed recovering, while everyone else was having a great time out in the garden.
I have never forgotten (or forgiven) this experience.
The joys of life with Type 1 diabetes!
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February 28, 2024 at 4:58 am
Jackie
Hi, Renza,
Thank you for sharing this opportunity for others to share their life experience with diabetes. It’s when people are willing to be vulnerable with each other that we learn that we’re not the only ones facing our challenges in life and that can be comforting.
You never know the positive impact sharing something about yourself could have until you do it and someone lets you know that your story helped them.
In addition to your great prompts I suggest people add what they learned from their experiences.
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March 14, 2024 at 6:25 pm
Aaron Duell
I can’t recall did you ever work
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