With my twentieth diaversary in the bag (thanks to my gorgeous husband who organised a surprise breakfast get together with some of our most loved on Sunday morning!), I’ve been thinking about what I wish I’d known when I was first diagnosed.
To be honest, I don’t know that many of these things would necessarily have made sense at that time, but perhaps it would have been a useful little cheat sheet to have to keep coming back to.
Obviously, this isn’t an exhaustive list. I expect that if I wanted to, I could list hundreds of things I wish I’d known. But that would make for a really long blog post, and I need a coffee. So these are the first twenty things that flew out of my head and onto the page.
It’s worth noting that most, if not all, the most meaningful and important things I have learnt have come from others living with diabetes. So with that in mind, please feel free to add your own. Because I know I have a lot more to learn.
- Diabetes is not who you are now. It is something you have, but it is not who you are.
- Ask for a referral to a psychologist or counsellor. Even if you don’t need it right at this moment, you may in a week, or a month or a year. Or not at all. But know that there is someone available to you to talk about life with a chronic health condition who can help you understand what that means for you. Unfortunately, this is often the one healthcare professional you’re not introduced to at diagnosis.
- There is no right way to do diabetes. There is just your way.
- Your diabetes; your rules. It may take you a while to learn what that means. You may change the rules. That’s okay. It’s your diabetes.
- There are other people just like you. I don’t mean only in the pancreatically-challenged way. I mean they too are dealing with diabetes but with the same attitudes and ideas as you. Seek them out and treasure them. AKA ‘Find your tribe; love them hard.’
- The HCPs you meet the first day you are diagnosed do not need to be your HCPs for life. Or even until next time. If you don’t feel comfortable or safe or understood, seek out those who are more aligned with what you need. (This may take you some time to work out. That’s okay. But you should never feel bad when you walk out of an appointment with a healthcare professional.)
- You do not need to eat that amount of mashed potato every meal, despite what your first dietitian may tell you. I wish that I had been told that there was not a single eating plan when I was diagnosed. It took me a while to work out that I could still eat the way I wanted while managing my diabetes. (And that will probably change over the years. That’s fine!)
- Technology can be your friend if you want it to be. You don’t need to use all the diabetes technology on offer, you can try it and decide it’s not right for you, or you can embrace it all and be a complete diabetes technology geek. Learning and knowing about it, and working out what is right for you is a smart thing to do.
- Do not read or watch tabloid news when they are talking diabetes. (And you might need to gently ask those you love to please not send you clippings from the Herald Sun about the latest way mice have been cured. Remind them you are not a mouse.)
- People with type 2 diabetes are not the enemy. I wish that I hadn’t been led to believe that there was a great divide between the different types. We have a lot more in common than differences, and together, we have a much louder voice.
- A withering glance and an eye roll may become your best defence against the ridiculous things people will say to you.
- Shortcuts are your friends. It doesn’t make you lazy. It makes you smart. (AKA – of course you don’t need to change your lancet every time you check your glucose levels!)
- It’s okay to hate diabetes sometimes. It’s okay to not be a superhero. It’s okay to feel that diabetes is actually stopping you sometimes. This doesn’t make you a failure. This makes you a person with diabetes.
- Control is relative. Diabetes control is elusive. Maybe remove the word control from your lexicon.
- Read diabetes blogs. That’s where the honesty is. Some will make you cry; some will make you laugh; some will make you cheer. But mostly, they will make you nod your head and feel like there are others in the world who understand. Really, truly, intrinsically, honestly understand.
- This is not your fault. Or your parents’ fault. Or because of anything you did. No one asks to get (any type of) diabetes.
- Don’t expect people without diabetes to truly understand what you are going through. They don’t need to (remember how little you knew before you were diagnosed) and it’s not really fair to expect them to truly ‘get it’. It is okay to expect them to be polite and non-judgemental. Feel free to point out people’s lack of manners if they say something ridiculous about diabetes. Or ask if you should be eating something.
- Some days, the best way to deal with diabetes is a Netflix binge, your favourite foods and the sofa. You’re not giving up – it’s called self-care.
- Learn from those who have gone before you. Find people who have lived with diabetes for one, five, ten, twenty, fifty, seventy years longer. Sit down with them over a cuppa and listen to them tell their stories. It will be the best thing you can do.
- Be kind to yourself. Really. Be kind to yourself.
And one final point for good luck – make diabetes as delightful as you possible can. Sometimes, it’s just such an ugly thing to have to deal with and any way to make it more fun or sexier or prettier is just what you need to get you through the day!
Some awesome folks making diabetes more fun to live with:
Casualty Girl on Society 6 for bags, t-shirts, phone cases and more
David Burren’s designs on Red Bubble for t-shirts, phone cases, stickers and more
Pep me up for Freestyle Libre stickers and medical alert bracelets
Rockadex for CGM and pump tapes and more
I Have the Sugars at Teepublic for t-shirts.
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April 17, 2018 at 2:41 pm
Merinda
I was really annoyed the first night I was hooked up to a pump, as my Diabetes Educator wouldn’t put me in touch with other people she’d started on pumps – I had so many questions I didn’t feel I could ask her. When I was comfortable coping with the pump I offered to be a contact for any other newbies, but again my request fell on deaf ears. Go figure!
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April 17, 2018 at 3:19 pm
Mags
1. Master the art of ‘blink and smile’. It covers your disbelief, shock, rage and saves you from prison.
2. Be aware that it is frightening when you have the highest IQ In the room and the other person in it is a doctor. Refer to 1. And get out ASAP. Most standard doctors know nothing about D, T1 and your body. If you are stuck ask for a DE. They know and help a LOT.
3. You’re not going to die at 40
4. D will be the most infuriating, fucked up expensive POS in your life, apart from a mental health problem. You might get the latter from the former. Get help for both of them. It’s not your fault and you can’t fix them by yourself.
5. No matter how perfect you try to run your glucose, with healthy food, exercise, balanced insulin and all sorts of new technology – many times D will still not work ‘but it did yesterday’. It’s NOT your fault. If you can accept this you will feel so much better. Ask for help. Try again tomorrow.
6. Comparison is the root of evil. Don’t compare your D even with another’s D. You may have similar frustrations,
but their ‘5.5% A1c and straight line BGLs’ (which are only a brief snap shot of their life on social media) will eat you alive. Accept everyone’s D is different. (Even super low carb and on a pump my D looooves chaos)
7. No, it certainly is NOT fair
8. You’re doing the best you can without a major organ functioning. Insulin controls over 1000 functions in the human body. We are only trying to tweak one, glucose. And no doctor can even help us manage that 100% of the time.
9. Yes it could be worse, but your saying that completely invalidates my feelings of hurt.
10. It’s not your fault. Ask for help. Be honest. Do your best with what you can do at the time.
11. If you fall, you can pick yourself up and try again tomorrow. If you can’t get up, you really do need to honestly ask for help. Keep asking until you get it. It might take several people, to be honest. Keep trying.
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April 17, 2018 at 6:00 pm
John Grumitt
Thank you, Renza. I love the reflections and don’t they just resonate. I would only add: if you can find a great healthcare team, they can be hugely empowering too. I did @DiabetesKings plus Ian Gallen and @DrAliLumb for sport. Anything is possible.
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April 18, 2018 at 12:18 am
beateputzt
Thank you Renza for sharing this. I’m living almost my life with diabetes type 1 and it has mostly been a pleasure, but sometimes it was and is a hard time. So it’s really good to read this.
Kindly regards from Germany, Beate
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April 18, 2018 at 12:40 pm
Rick Phillips
Laugh, laugh a lot then when you think you are done, laugh some more. Laughing will extend you life and reduce your burdens.
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April 18, 2018 at 5:43 pm
pharmacistcatherine
Great reflections. Wish more people knew them. 🙂 Love #18 (Stress screws up glycaemic control so don’t sweat the small stuff)
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April 19, 2018 at 3:18 pm
Corinna
Thank you especially for #10.
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